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Sorry... had to be done.. feeling much better now though heheh :P

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Apocapus
17:26 Apr 17 2009

I'm Glad!



I'll Join You......*SHRIEKS!!!!!!*



That felt nice....

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So many things we take for granted in this life. Our basic needs met, we dare not dream for more. We settle.

Personally, I have always been the one with my head in the clouds. Never satisfied with less than wholeness..forever searching for just that little bit more...so certain that it's out there. Reality may leave me bleeding and broken, but I WILL emerge from it..BETTER, STRONGER, and more determined than ever to BE, HAVE, LIVE!

In light of my most recent Blessings of Friendship, Love, Trust, Respect, Joy, and Peace..I have found my WILL once more!

I've experienced just a taste of what is possible, and it has left me wanting more!

I wish to LOVE without regret

I wish to LIVE without fear

I wish to TRUST without hesitation

I wish to GIVE without obligation

I wish for Acceptance without judgement, Forgiveness without conditions, Wisdom without conceit.

This may seem alot to ask, but I only ask it of myself.

With Mother's Guidance and Blessing I am WORTHY of all that I challenge myself to be.

It is my WILL to be exactly that.

It is my WILL to share that with those who matter most to me, and you know who you are..

My intention is set.

~Praises be to the Lord and Lady for their gracious gifts of wisdom love and light~

Blessed Be!

"Escape"

She Loves Him

He Loves Her

Not the forever kind of love

But mutual admiration

Understanding

Laughter

Escape

She Knows Him

He Knows Her

Not deep soulful kind of knowledge

But mutual familiarity

Comfortable

Friendly

Escape

She Wants Him

He Wants Her

Not the possessive kind of want

But a mutual hunger

Passionate

Uninhibited

Escape

She beckons

He is there

A mutual need fulfilled

Sated

Relieved

A moment in time

"Escape"

Home



In a time that was not a time

In a place that was not a place

There you were in my soul

Beautiful green meadows

A strong Northern Gale

The winds of enchantment and knowledge

Do not believe what you see

But see what you believe

With my final breath drawn that day

I spoke your name

Knowing we'd be together again

The taste of that last kiss

Lingers on my lips still today

So many times my heart has wept

With longing for you

You were always there,

Yet your presence never revealed to me

Reborn with the innocence of a child

I could not know you then

I found myself once more

In a time that is not a time

In a place that is not a place

Praying to the only God I knew

For guidance, answers, healing

For a heart and soul that seemed broken beyond repair

And you were there...

I was drawn to you instantly, though

The reason I could not comprehend

I was searching for nothing but hope

Instead I found life

Even now, sometimes it's unclear

How we got here.

Our journey is centuries old,

Yet is still in its infancy

We've come full circle, my darling

Our Great Mother really does listen and answer,

no matter what name you call her

For she brought you to me,

Even though I didn't know Her or Honor Her

For who She is

She has brought me countless blessings in you

I loved you then

And love you still

Forever from this moment on

Eternity is our will

Thinking of Him

Often she finds herself drifting

Soaring to a new level of awareness

The reality of now fading away

All that remains, her thoughts of him

Floating through existence on

The pleasing sound of his voice

The electricity of his touch

Swept away by his burning kisses

The warmth of his embrace

Carried through her days

By the memory of his face

His brilliant smile

Blazing eyes

The strength of his love

The heat of his desire

The passion in his soul

Lost in her dreams

Forever, thinking of him

Weakness

Love is not weakness

Friendship is not weakness

Loyalty is not weakness

Devotion is not weakness

Compassion is not weakness

Generosity is not weakness

Forgiveness is not weakness

For those that may characterize these traits as my weaknesses, I assure you, these are assets that make me one of the strongest women I know. I have endured many hardships in this lifetime, and yet I AM. Pushing ahead, moving forward, however slow the pace.

Fear is weakness

Blame is weakness

Even self preservation is weakness.

When we carry burdens from our past into our present, whether they be past obligations or emotional scars, they are damaging. There are certain people in my life, family, friends, PACK, that I am just there for, no matter what the circumstances. I am PROUD to be STRONG enough to be that kind of woman.

While you were Sleeping

In my dreams, I watch over you

While you are sleeping

Many nights I feel your restless soul

Troubled by memories of a fate you perceive to be unfulfilled

I want to protect you, comfort you,

Love you.

And I do.

As best I can.

This morning was different

I lay there watching you

While you were sleeping

There was a new sense of peace about you

A renewed feeling of hope filled my heart

I cant tell you how grateful I was

To witness and experience that shift in your soul

While you were Sleeping.

Stronger Than Love

We've both walked this Earth

Searching for love that burns

Intense and Passionate

What we've found

Is that kind of love doesn't endure

It's fire consumes your soul

Leaving nothing but ashes

What we have runs much deeper

Contentment, friendship

A deep and true love

Flowing consistently

Weaving its way through our hearts

Peaceful, Warm

Steady

Our bond is sacred

Remaining constant throughout time and space

Individually, we have our weaknesses

As well as our strengths

Combined, we are stronger than Love

Although at the moment

What I once thought was beautiful

I now find repulsive

My peaceful soul wont allow it

To remain that way forever

You're an important part of my life

A place for you in my heart

Will always be

Special

Cherished

Loved.

I have so much I want and need to express

But if whatever you claimed to feel for me ever was real

You already know

I am angry.

I am hurt.

I will heal.

Though these emotions cloud my judgement

I will find clarity

I will find peace

And soon

I will forgive you

I will forgive myself

I will find my way to be the friend I always have been

The strength to stand on my own again.

And lift you as well, if you should ever need me

I'm not there yet

Nor will I be for awhile

But I'll get there.

Time heals.

Distance heals.

Hearts heal.

As will we.

It is a whole new book.

Not ours.

But yours.

And mine.

Let's not repeat the same old chapters.

The same worn out pages.

We deserve better.

May the Goddess Bless You Always..



~Dedicated

Within My Soul





Skyclad and Kneeling before My Mother

My skin glistening with Her purest oils

My soul laid bare, awaiting Her scrutiny

As She makes Her presence known

I pause in my prayer

Raising my arms in Her honor

I find my inner stillness

My heart fills with love and gratitude

And there I stay

Absorbing Her Blessing

I feel Her smiling upon me

Her Love, Pure and Warm

Bathing in Her Light

I smile back at Her

Knowing that I have pleased Her

I have honored Her with every step I took today

I thank Her for the Gifts

She has so generously instilled in me

Beauty, Passion, Love, Strength, Endurance, Wisdom, Grace

Peace, Forgiveness

And most of all

Her Essence, Ever Present

Within My Soul.



~Miakoda~

07/27/07

I'm really feeling a lot of schtuff lately and feeling like I should be journaling again. I'm just so lacking inspiration to put things into words effectively as of late. I think I might go through some of my old journals both on and off of here and see if something rekindles a spark of talent hahaha. I'll probably post some of my older ramblings here so if you've read them before... sorry but tough.. if not.. enjoy! Hopefully soon I'll have some new poetry or something falling out of my currently feeble mind.



~Blessings

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InsanityHasPigtails
16:50 Apr 10 2009

can't wait :)

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